Monday, September 15, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
the HIGHLIGHT of my life
Don’t know why I never learn. Maybe its just something that cant be taught. Tempting fate is no fun. But why did I do it? I could have gotten maimed. Almost died today even. People all around the world are tuning in to catch sport’s biggest event of the year and here I am trying to gamble with my life. I always make them sad. Even if they don’t show it. Luckily today, they didn’t know about it. I really thank whoever is watching over me for the chance to be typing here now. I don’t know how many chances that being will grant me. Soon, it’ll be all used up and the thread will be cut into two. Emotions are funny feelings. At that moment, I tell myself not to do it and a split second later, I do it! Why? I don’t know. Ask those married couples who have just filed for divorce. Some date for over 5 years, get married for 2 months and then severe ties the next day. Why? I also don’t know. I really want to stop tempting fate. But all I do is say it here and then I do nothing about it. When will I stop doing something that will make those around me stop worrying? Today was my lucky day. I really want to stop tempting fate. I will. Starting from this very moment. Higher being, you have my word!
On a brighter note, I never expected that i would say this. Kids are cute! I used to dislike kids but after teaching them for about a month, they really bring a big smile to my face each time I step into class. Guiding them and explaining to them how to go about doing things….these simple things make me feel happy to have instilled something into their minds. I say this with absolutely no bullshit. Today was their sports day. Seeing them so innocent, being happy and excited over the smallest things makes me wish I could turn back time and become one again. All the sins that I have committed would be washed away with the innocence that came with being a kid. A kid. Being a kid is really the time of your life.
kim is still the best!
and you have to highlight some things to see them even more clearly.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
But let me tell you I am justified. Look to my left and you'll see where I tried. Look to my right to see the crimes. Look through my past and you'll see all the lies I've lied. And thats why I'm justified. The light passes me by. all this while i have been trying to get this out of my head. I tried to wash myself clean. your soul has since then died in my heart. But let me tell you I am doing fine.
Look in my eyes, you'll see my life of crime. the crime of always having you at the back of my mind. it's been going on for well over 10 years. let me be at peace. let yourself be forgotten. you still look fine. very fine in my eyes. but its just like that. a glimpse, a tease, a tickle. then it's gone. i can't even get a hold of your shadow. it's as if a light has been cast and it has filled the darkness left by your shadow. lost. for now. i feel sorry. for myself. for always having this thought in my head. i always tell myself its a lost cause. my friends echo that thought too. somehow, i just have no real answer to this. truly, i have lost. i have lost the will to forget you.
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Sunday, June 8, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
wah i hate Man U. and i love my new job. part time only.
i have to pass a 2 week course first though.
WAH! looks grand hor! looks like a lot of work to do
but then looks like only.
haha
MY NEW TOY! I GET TO DRIVE THIS! HOW FIERCE MAN!
king of the road.
wah i wish i really could drive this beauty loh. Prime movers in singapore
are super dull looking... :(
look below.
this is something close to what i will be driving. parking this thing is hell man.
sometimes the tail will go left when you reverse right...
really need skill...which i have, needless to say.
Something i took in bangkok. good to see, even better to heed.
Blackburn 1-1 Man Utd
i hate this scoreline. lucky fishers!
That's why i cant sleep. so i try to think of happy thoughts like joanne.ok, its time for Mythbusters. you should watch this. its entertaining.
this week, it's Supersized Myths.
Monday, April 14, 2008
fuel for thought
Monkey see monkey do may be the cause. babies, young children, i guess, are not likely to know what good is and what the opposite is. As long as the people around them carry on with their daily lives, their offspring will follow suit. It is not hard to spot bad mannered people around. The person writing this entry as of 1947hrs on the 14th of April 2008 is one prime example. Now i am not saying that my parents and ancestors are at fault for my current mannerisms. there are just too many people and if i don't follow them, maybe i was led to follow somebody else.
The fact that we have the right of way does not equate to the right of way. Sometimes, it makes more sense to give way, but our pig headed society always gets in the way of common sense. Is it the ego thingy again? Could be. For some reason, giving way in this country means losing face, throwing our pride down the drain, let alone swallowing it. Somebody who indicates an intention to do something before us has as much chance of surviving as a full cream chocolate bar at a fat camp. HAHA!
Wow. in the space of 2 weeks i have been to 2 countries. In a long time too. It feels so good to look down from the skies. People from other counties are super gracious. Crowded shopping malls? Tight back alleys? Everywhere i walked most of the people gave way to me. Even when i bumped into them, they turned round and - no ugly angry face! Hong Kong and Thailand. Thailand was the better of the 2. Maybe because i went with friends instead of my parents and got much more freedom. Yah it was hot and sweat flowed freely but who cares! The experience was a blast, the local people there were always smiling and the girls there super pretty and naturally and radiantly tan.
Everywhere we went, pretty girls just seemed to pop up from somewhere. Even without makeup, they were beautiful to look at. The cashier at a random 7-11 was the best. Even the toilet cleaners were pretty! None of that slutty cheap Ah Lians that we here have an abundance of. Sad to say.
Sounds good? Inside was like shit man.
My so called friends planned a something for me. Till now, where's my ah qua?
anyway, ladyboys, bad manners and lava lamps aside, work's going to start soon. really miss school. really miss looking at pretty and beautiful thai girls. really miss not having my ladyboy present.