thanks

it's done now. the thing that has kept me and others up for countless nights is over. now we roll forward into the post production stage.

i'm happy and sad too.

happy that i managed to finish my shoot with minimal problems and happy to see people smiling on our set. really, when a person smiles in a crowd of frowns, it really makes a difference. this is one project that i really really enjoyed. seeing peoples' faces after completing each cock shot from my shot list made me laugh inside. some shots were tough yet they still did it. i really appreciate the effort that you guys put in.

sad that some of my friends had to go through more than what i did to get things moving. i felt it too. the pain of trying to get something done when others are not helping. doing someone else's work just to get the film going. these are the downs in life but after this, there will always be something better at the end of the road.

seeing them strive for the best through tears and sweat made me realize that this was the time, that time where everyone was near the finishing line. one last sprint and that was it. i really wished that we could have done something to help, but we cant be at 2 places at the same time. this is a project that everyone should be proud of. this is what you have done. really, just go for it. because, there is always A Better Tomorrow. :)

many thanks to the people who have helped our group in the completion of our film.

they are -

Pamela, Kai Xiang, Kang Sheng, Deborah, Chia Sin, Kavin, Ben, Joanne,

Adelene, Audrey, Sammy, Kwang Wei, Desh, Daryl, Don, Jolene, CJ and Benson.

hope i never miss out anyone.

the crew - Yvonne, Marcus, TY, Sean, Daniel, Rainkun and Anthony.

BALA to you all.

May you all have HARD ONs for leotards in years to come.

JOURNEY

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire. The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when?
Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time...and remember that time waits for no one.
So... stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you've had a drink, until you've sobered up, until you die, or until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

FISHERY FRIENDS

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.
In primary 1 your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the toilet with you as you walked through the scary halls.
In primary 2 your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you cheat in homework.
In primary 3 your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their snacks with you.
In primary 4 your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to help you do your homework.
In primary 5 your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the bus for you.
In primary 6 your idea of a friend was the person who went up to your crush, and asked her to talk with you, so that if she said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.
In secondary 1 your idea of a friend was the person who always knew what you wanted during recess.
In secondary 2 your idea of a good friend was the person who sat beside you on a bus and listened to your angry rants about having a strict curfew.
In secondary 3 your idea of a good friend was the person who went with you to that "cool" party so you wouldn't wind up being the only fisherman there.
In secondary 4 your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit and study with at McDonalds or the airport.
In poly year 1 your idea of a good friend was the person who sat with you in the canteen looking at year 1 girls walking by.
In the first 3 months of army your idea of a good friend was the person who ran with you and made sure that you got to go home every weekend.
In the final year of army your idea of good friends were the people who gave you a sense of new found freedom when you went out with them.
In early poly years (again...haha) your idea of good friends were the people who went out of their way to come over and re assure you that you would make it in life as well as you had these past three years.
And finally during those last days of being in poly, your idea of good friends hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at three years of memories you were leaving behind.

Now, your idea of a good friend(s) is still the person who -

Gives you the better of the two choices.
Holds your hand when you're scared.
Helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you.
Thinks of you at times when you are not there.
Reminds you of what you have forgotten.
Helps you put the past behind you but understands
when you need to hold on to it a little longer.
Stays with you so that you have confidence.
Goes out of their way to make time for you.
Helps you clear up your mistakes.
Helps you deal with pressure from others.
Smiles for you when you are sad.
Helps you become a better person.
However most importantly never forgets you!